Sunday, April 18, 2010

Its about time life got back to being crazy

More often than not, while going through life, we come across situations that make us think and reconsider the way we've been living life soo far..Just about trying to maintain that illusion of sanity so we can look "normal" to the world.
And thats when one stops to question...who am I trying to impress anyway??Do these people really matter?? Come to think of it, theres no such body keeping a record of the sane and insane things we do in a day..Is anyone going to remember if I broke that glass or if i put loud music in my car and drove to workplace??
Well not really!! And so theres a part of life that one can always start to crazy-up, think outside the box, do all we can to make our crazy dreams a reality...and to be able to ask oneself..Am i crazy enough to trust myself when the whole world thinks im a little nuts..
And i know the crazy things I'd like to do and still feel absolutely fine about them later...
  • dance in the moonlight
  • get super drunk and kiss a random hot stranger
  • sneak out from my house and spend the rest of the night with frnds...
  • colour my room with crayons and make funny faces
  • laugh until the water comes out of my nose
  • go on a drive alone at 3 in the night and speed on the highway
  • call my ex and tell him how i think he could be gay
  • ho hitchhiking with richa, see the world, live on the road, backpacker style
  • blow bubbles in the bathtub
  • whistle and clap in a movie hall
  • make all my friends sing happy birthday to me in a typical classroom style..the way we used to in school
  • live in a tree house with rushi..on a eucalyptus tree :-P
  • watch a scary movie the night
  • get blue and pink streaks in my hair
and ofcourse a few others that i wont be mentioning here :-P

Friday, January 29, 2010

Opinions I have changed...

I have been mulling over this for quite sometime now. As a kid I used to wonder what growing up would be like, imagining myself in my teens and then twenties...And I had my own set of interpretations of facts and life in general...Life was bitsy yet attractive, cheerful and whopeeee..I was my favorite!!

Then I grew up!!! Turning 23 in two months time...And Life has been crazy! Have been through a series of opinion shifts..And a lot of the opinions ive had earlier have reversed..

  • The notion that a dentists clinic was 'hell served on a chair'...Though i never had serious dental issues, my sis has gone through shit as far as visiting a dentist is concerned. Shes been a brave kid, but watching her sit through all the appointments and especially the sucker pain...used to give me nightmares!!!lol..Did I say m a DENTIST myself now..This is the weirdest thing that could have happened..but am sort of living with it..and enjoying it nightmares to lil kids??adults too??Its not as bad as it was then..

  • U MUST MUST listen to ure mom!! Well..Hell no!!Ego clashes and arguments with moms are totally in..So much so, that I cant get myself to agree on one thing my mom says..

  • Indian wear is for AUNTIES only!!...Since now am officially well into 'Women territory'...managing sarees and salwar kameez are not really an issue anymore..and the wear-a-pair-of-jeans-everywhere-u-go is totally passe!

  • Alcohol???NO WAY!! I dont drink!!lol..And now...Forget it..u know what am going to say anyway..lets go grab a drink!!

  • Girls who ogle at guys...PATHETIC!!!lol..Errrrr...I am pathetic..I am appreciating beauty yaa...

  • EDUCATION...*I want to be a doctor, an engineer when I grow up*...bullshit!!!Its allrite even if I dont have great degrees to back me up..I am smart and the world is my oyster..even if its still enjoying the ride..

  • BE GOOD TO PEOPLE NO MATTER WHAT...seriously?? I dont give a rats ass cos if ure not nice to me, brace ureself for the nasty me!! loads to add on to the list..but thats later..
Have fun growing up!!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Forgive or Forget??

When I think about the people that have come and gone in my life, I have to tell myself that most were there for a reason, even if they werent very nice people, I still had something to learn either from their wrongdoings or the goodness I saw in them. Its stupid to hold on to the idea that they will change or the potential I saw in them. I know that all of us are humans and we do make mistakes, some grave ones too. I also know that one should be forgiven for their mistakes.

Some say "forgive and forget". Others say "forgive but never forget". But I think to forgive and forget is a personal decision that often depends on whether someone can overcome the hurt of an injustice and wrong doing. Sometimes the only healthy way to move forward is to look back at our past and inject forgiveness into it..I mean i totally agree that no matter what path I choose, the act of forgiving is the first step. But I just cant get myself to forget and move on..

Its a lot easier said than done I guess. Personally I believe if I forgive and forget, am sort of approving of the other persons mistake. And I prefer keeping it as a reminder just so I dont get wronged again. Because i have this strange feeling that if we forget, it comes back and gets us someday. Its like giving up the last right to feel hatred, anger atleast, towards the person who hurt you. Whether or not I get closure is irrelevant. Bearing a grudge is obviously destructive and forgiveness does give a sense of peace, but this is just another way to preserve my conscious sanity.

Basically there are a lot of emotions entwined with the act called ' to forgive and forget' . There always will be a doubt in our minds about this..